Where does explanation end
& blame begin?
So wrapped up in his own desire, in his own pain.
His addict-narcissisism has filled his whole universe
& he is looking to me to save him,
but we share the same genes,
the same faults.
Dear brother, you never had a chance.
It is not suicide if there is no life
to begin with.
Just because utterances of intent
seems to be the best way to make sense
of one another,
does not mean
you should take it so seriously.
It is only words
(& thoughts are only words in our heads),
so lighten up people:
Of course I am not an egotistical narcissist with delusions of grandeur & insignificance.
Of course not!
Only some of the time
(just like you).
Always willing to give giving up a chance.
All to willing to burn my bridges, often in advance.
At least in one moment.
In the next, my laziness
might be in force and
Just a bit player,
fighting for a byte.
A pawn, seeking neither the statue of king or queen.
No, I want to be the player,
the man in charge.
The man with the plan.
An impossibility,
never achieved by anybody,
why should I be special?
Thread carefully.
The ice is thin & the water deep.
Keep your breathing shallow,
lest it ceases.
Please be sensible
and stop doing those pirouettes.
Prison is just
metaphorical walls made real.
To distinguish between out & in,
us & them,
we have a better class of entertainment,
but much crueler guards.
At least in prison
there’s no doubt.
You shall never leave.
Disaster Dancer
Chaos Chauffeur
Terror Tapdancer
Joyous tears in pain born
Riding the Mare of Night into the sunset
Madness treasured & sought
Treasure discarded in delirium
We go there
to meet ourselfes
To see who we really are
